I am happy and i am sad ...

I get happy and sad very easily, My life is too good before but i didn't realize it. Having fun with friends ... go anywhere i want to and do what i want were just seems odinary for me. I am a only one child so i get lonely very easily i don't want to be alone ... but now i think we are all along in this world. We are only single sole in here, borrowed a body from god and living on earth ... we are small like a bacteria for universe ... we are so useless with out others love ... My life was living in a small circle protected by my parents and never had chance to face the real world ... but since i left them and start my new life in other countries like ... London, San francisco and Vancouver ... I start to feel the life ... and from that experience now i become more stronger ... i didn't know why i wasn't feel very happy when i was teenager but i guss i never felt satisfied before i wanted more and more and didn't see waht i already have .... Now i remember the good time i had ... The trip with my mom, dad and grandma to Thai ... and the trip with my parents, my bf and some friends to Lasvegas. They are all like a rinbow to me in my memoris. I am happy b'z i had good life and i am happy for my self i changed, now... every little things can make me happy easily everyday there are simlest thins i feel happy about ... like ... the weather is good or after finishing tidy up my home or having bath with the music i like or when i work hard for the company my mom left for me or seen my grandparents ! I am still learing but i wish i can have big heart to all the people. learn to forgive to love .... I am sad ...... b'z the most important person in my life is not in here anymore .. i am living in a big house by my self ... i can't sleep with out lights, i can't stay without music around me ... cooking for my self and eat alone is sad .... sleeping by my self is cold .... not having someone to talk to is longly. I am not complain ... i am learning from everyday of my life, nobody can 100% feel it unless u really experience it ...I used to love karaok so much but now i am scare to go b'z the sad songs ... i could really get in to it and can't come back for long time ... i am happy i am sad ...