My precious time ...

My friends told me i always look for the pass. Living in my apartment with full pack of old pictures on the wall. Evrything in this place filled with so much memories....I guess I do like to talk about the past over and over again... .i'm still bothered b'z of those people who have hurt me in the past.... i cannot let things go easily... i keep everything as i could from my childhood...i cry whenever i think about my mom.... ..i feel soured whenever i saw his pictures with another girl...I am living in my own memories... good and bad ... are all with me.... I realiZed that I cannot move on... so for the new year 2006, I just want to say goodbye to the past... No matter good or bad... would only make me better the way I am now." I only want to say thank you for all the problems i had, and the people who hurt my feelings before...b'z I learned a lot from that..You came to my life to make me stronger...I don't blame anyone b'z I shouldn't ask too much from anyone... as you get more disappointed from putting in more hopes ane expectations... why CAN'T I just learn to make myself happy in a simple way... happiness is free when u use your mind. I can't change the PAST, but I can make it difference for my futures... I am going to change and shift my focus from my past to the future that will make my life even better....and those precious memories will always stayed well cherished in my heart .....